Musings 73: Sidhbhari

Perhaps the (his)story of Sidhbari starts circa 700 BCE when sage Kapila trekked across the magnificent Dauldhar ranges of the Himalayas to reach this tiny Pahadi hamlet. Perched in a small cave in one of the hillocks, he continued his spiritual seeking with intense self discipline. The result came out as the Sāmkhya school of the Hindu philosophy, which went on to provide the philosophical foundation for the teachings of a Siddharta Gautama- the Buddha, who would walk this path a hundred years later.

27 centuries have passed since Kapila rishi sat here absorbed deep in Himself. I was fortunate to step into the very same cave yesterday.

In 1959, when the Peoples’ Republic of China invaded Tibet, the 14th Dalai Lama along with his community had to exile to India. They crossed over to India at Tawang (Arunachal Pradesh) and proceeded 2,800 kms north-west to Mcleod Ganj, Dharamsala (Himachal Pradesh). Also known as the little Lhasa, the Tibetan government-in-exile is headquartered here. It is barely 10 kms north-west of the Kapila cave.

5 kms further up is Akanjar Mahadev Temple on the shores of a small but fast flowing ice cold rivulet. The legend goes that Arjun, the mighty Pandava, while preparing for the Mahabharata war, in exile, meditated on its banks and won the Pashupata missile from Mahadev.

Gurudev Swami Chinmayananda established Sandeepany Himalayas at Sidhbari in mid 1970s as the second residential campus for the teaching/training of Advait Vedant. The place was specially chosen for its spiritual climate as it is home to many Siddhas (of various traditions), absorbed in deep meditation for decades and centuries together (not an exaggeration).

It was in this quite valley where Gurudev retired for around 6 months when the Emergency was raging (1975-77) and the former Prime Minister Indira Gandhi revoked his passport and created hurdles in his work (for his open criticism of her subversion of democracy). His days were spent in sadhna and writing commentaries for the Upanishad(s) which continue to serve seekers and scholars across the globe.

Two decades later, when Gurudev attained Mahasamadhi, his mortal remains was brought here and laid to final rest (bhu-samadhi) at the Chinmaya Tapovan Ashram. It stands at 1.5 kms south-west of the Kapila cave.

As I jot down this note, sitting next to Gurudev samadhi sthan, looking at the majestic cloud covered peaks of the Dauladhar, on this Janmasthami Day, a feeling of gratitude is sweeping me over. This Tapo-bhumi has been contributing to the spiritual culture of the world since ages. Sidhbari is quiet, but vigorous.

Humble pranams to life in all forms and beings!

Hearty Janmashtami greetings to one and all!

Hari Om!


Srinath Mohandas
August 14, 2017

Meditation 6

June 19, 2014

Kolathur Advaita Ashram

I am fortunate to spend time with Swami Ramanandaji, Guru Bhai of Gurudev Swami Chinmayanandaji and a direct disciple of one of the greatest Masters of 20th century, Swami Shivananda Saraswati.

The 87 years old Mahatma, also used to share a special bond with Sri Swami Tapovan Maharaj and had spent time in proximity with him.

When I requested the Master, to share an episode with Tapovan ji, he narrated the following incident.

“I was in my early 20s, staying at Shivananda ashram in Rishikesh. I also used to go to Uttarkashi to meet Sri Swami Tapovanam. During one of those visits, Swamiji asked me to pay a visit to an “amma” performing rigorous “tapas” in a neighboring cave on the shores of Ganga. I went there, saw her from a distance and returned.

“Swamiji told me that she was a Yogini of the highest order who is getting ready to “give up” her body (attain Maha Samadhi) in a few days time. He asked me to stay back and return only after witnessing the most auspicious sight of Mahasamadhi.

“On the appointed day we went to her cave in anticipation. At the most auspicious hour, she twitched in her seat of Tapas, drew three breaths deep and lifted herself up (seated in padmasana posture). She then moved (through air!) and dipped herself in the raging Ganga!

“With prayer on lips we stood spectators through out.”

Meditation 5

June 18, 2014

Kolathur Advaita Ashram

Me1: Who are you?

Me2: Sat-chit-aananda swaroopam. Shivoham!

Me1 (laughing): Text book answer! You have been “parroting” this for long.

(Silence)

Me1: Who are you?

Me2 (head down): I don’t know.

Me1 (smiling): Are you not “sat-chit-aananda swaroopam”?

Me2: Masters say so. Shastra say so. But it is not my realisation.

Me1 (stern face): Are you not ashamed that your understanding of yourself is based on what a Shankara or a Buddha say?

Me2 (protest): That’s my faith in them!

Me1: So long as their words don’t become your conviction, you do not have faith in them.

Don’t guise your weakness as Shraddha. You are fooling yourself.

(Silence)

Me2: Where am I going wrong?

Me1: In your approach to Vedant.

Me2: How?

Me1: Vedant to you is still a discipline like any other physical sciences.

It “excites” you. You are charmed by the subtlety of its thought, hypothesis and theories, finesse of concepts, lucid commentaries of the Masters, discussions and debates, arguments and counter arguments. You have reduced it to a mere intellectual puzzle.

It will be “liberating” to you only when you approach it as the “science to know yourself”.

(head down)

Me1: Stop being a part time sadhaka. Be a full timer.

Now is the time!

Meditation 4

June 17, 2014

Kolathur Advaita Ashram

Me: Master, what inspired you to this life (monkhood)?

(Silence)

Me: I am eager to know.

(Silence)

Master: Where does Ganga originate?

Me: At Gaumukh

Master: Really?

Me: That’s what I have read.

Master: At Gaumukh, only a small stream exist. As it flows down the Himalayas, hundreds of streams, rivers- small and big join. Together they gush to the plains and by the time it enters Kolkata to merge with the Bay of Bengal, it is countless times bigger.

Ganga is made with the waters of all its tributaries. To single out Gaumukh as the source of Ganga is erroneous.

A sanyasi (monk) is born when sadhana chatushtayam (four fold virtues that includes six fold inner-wealth) is effulgent in a jeeva. It is the culmination of lessons learnt from experiences lying across many lives. To single out one or two experiences from this life and to establish a causal connect is wrong.

Reflection:

Seek not the source of a flowing river,
Ask not the origin of a travelling monk,
The points doesn’t exist!

Meditation 3

June 16, 2014

Kolathur Advaita Ashram

Me: Sometimes I oscillate between excitement and despair.

Master: What oscillates?

Me: This mind.

Master: Right

(silence)

Me: I am not able to control mind.

Master: Give up the desire to control.

Me: But I am unable to attain peace of mind. Inefficiency is the result.

Master: Don’t acknowledge the swings of mind. Ignore it and continue with work.

Me: Isn’t that escapism?

Master: Not to give undue importance to mind is the only way to deal with it.

Senses crave for pleasure. Mind operates with own reservoir of vasanas (tendencies). It cannot be stopped.

Me: Some thoughts bring shame.

Master: Do not judge thoughts. Let it pass. Do not act on impulse.

Me: Yes master.

Reflection:
Vali (of Ramayana) had an unique ability to absorb half the strength of the enemy who fights him face to face. It left Ram with the only option of not engaging him directly. Guerilla war!

Mind demands same treatment.

Meditation 2

June 15, 2014

Kolathur Advaita Ashram

Me: It seems that institutions cannot lead one to Truth.

Master: Right

Me: But institutions serve the world. They are necessary for the cohesion and progress of societies.

Master: Right

Me(thinking): That almost makes World an antonym of Truth!

Master: Realise Truth and then serve the world.

Reflection:
It is not the chirping* of birds that makes the sun rise. Sun rises when the time has come. 
Likewise, it is not the action (selfless) that gives one the vision of Truth. Truth dawns only with (self) Knowledge.

*When the birds chirp it is certain that the dawn is near.

Dawn

Meditation 1

June 14, 2014

Kolathur Advaita Ashram

Master: Follow NONE.
Me: Not even Guru?
Master: NO

–Deep meditative silence for a full minute–

Master (looking compassionately): You may imbibe qualities you admire from an individual. But following anyone other than Yourself will not lead you anywhere.

Follow None